It didn't take long to get to Bracknall and i have to say i was so shocked at how many people came on to us to say hello. I've realised how important it is to talk to new faces, as scarey as it might seem. You never get a second chance at a first impression, and i was an investigator, i would want to feel welcome. Sacrament was really good, with the last speaker being particulary good. Lilsie sat on my lap cooing the whole time, the lovely little bundle. She's really reaching out for stuff now.
We sat in the car after and ate a lunch Pauline had made before starting the journey back. The trip went really quick - we were meeting my mum before we knew it. Ethan had an awesome time and it's so good to see him again! The sun set on the way home was pretty impressive;
When we got back to Merthyr, we stopped in at the Evans' home to catch some supper. Pauline had bought a cake for Philly, and we put some candles in to sing for Ethan. Well, as i walked in with the cake, i felt it hit me really hard. Peter and Pauline were overcome and as Ethan blew the candles out, he asked, 'where's Philippa gone?'. It's just so painful. I don't think we will celebrate her birthday like this again as it really is just too hard. To think that this life is just a blip on the grand scheme of things, yet right now it feels like an eternity till we will all be together again.
When we got home, Jared put Ethan to bed while i fed Lily a rusk. I unpacked and settled her down to sleep before blogging. It's been nice to just chill out tonight. I have eaten like a pig this weekend, i don't regret it as it was all for Philly. I know she would have done the same! I'll just pound it a bit harder tomorrow on the treadmill!
Let's hope i will actually get a good night's sleep again tonight :)
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