3rd Time Unlucky.

This morning i woke up dreading the worst. I found out i was pregnant last week, and due to my track record, Jared and i were waiting till 12 weeks to let people know. I was at 5 weeks, and i woke with a terrible pain in my abdomen. I knew instantly what was happening. I woke Jared to tell him the bad news and he felt disappointed too. This is my 3rd failed pregnancy.

For anyone who has gone through this, even just once, you have my sympathy. I feel so frustrated, angry, irritated, unhappy..etc - a massive mix of emotions. I couldn't face going to church today, just because i felt so fragile. Jared was visiting HOV and Ethan was poorly, so we spent a quiet morning together. Jared got up with Ethan and let me stay in bed for a few hours to just absorb.

After Jared left for HOV, Ethan and i cuddled up together and watched a movie, eventually falling asleep. Cutie boy :) Jared came back and took us both to his parent's for dinner. We left pretty much after as i wasn't feeling great and came home to chill out. Ethan went to bed and i joined him for a bit, talking through what we could do tomorrow;





He just repeats everything i say, little tyke! Jared and i planned to watch Fringe, but Ethan woke up again! Fringe is a little scary, so we did wait till he went to bed to put it on, i do love my little family;


We still went to bed too late - we are both going to be dead in the morning!